Your ego – the biggest hypocrite of all

First of all, what is the ego?

The ego is a term used to describe the conditioning, concepts and ideas you have acquired during your life that act as a lens through which you view the world. It was put there by you yourself as you went through different life experiences, as a way to make sense of the huge amount of input you received from the external environment. The ego constructs itself through first-hand experience (for example, being bitten by a dog once might leave you with a fear of dogs), as well as second-hand ideas we get from our culture and society (for example, the belief that some vocations are ‘better’ than others). Every belief and unconscious reaction you have is the result of your ego. Continue reading “Your ego – the biggest hypocrite of all”

What awakening can feel like

Every day is different, and it’s difficult to describe what actually changes with a spiritual awakening, but here is one of my diary entries from November 2016:

I feel a kind of aching in my heart. Time is going so slowly, and I think I’m really realising that there’s nowhere to go and nothing to do. It’s all the same. Occasionally I’ll think of the fact that it’s eternity, and there’s a slight repelling feeling, but that fear is mostly long gone, just the tiny remnants remain.

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